NATURE

I was walking in a garden in one of the Campuses i work in, was looking around to shut my longing for beauty... it was so satisfactory for my eyes to see the trees holding some flowers... some dancing grass... wind blowing and a shiny sun... some rain drops were sleeping gratefully on a green leaf reflecting a warming sun ray after two weeks of excessive rain... and i thought that all this scene is perfect... 

I was thinking of another perfect moment in my life... i thought of my childhood... of my family together around a chimney... i thought even of my encounter with my soul mate who brought the greatest joy into my life.... i thought of many perfect things that may happen later in my life... 

But to tell you the truth, it wasn't as perfect as the lovely dress worn by that garden... and that reminds me of God!!! 

God and HIS works are the most perfect... His love is the best thing we can look at and enjoy... but with God looking is not enough.. HE invited me to be a part of this great scene... God accepted no visitors.. He longs to make me a part of the family... a rib of HIS body.... 

And the best thing about HIM is that He bring all the diversity of nature, feelings and even will in a great harmony to make the best scene of my life... 

God never makes it wrong, He is never surprised by our feelings and never has something out of control... HE waits to make me understand it right... 

Nature and every creature is just talking of one part of HIM...  

Mirror

it makes me cry when i look in the mirror... i look, i stare, i search within these wrinkles to find me... i look and all i am seeing are faces that i don't know...  


layers... how much i need peeling to reach my real face? how much i need washing to clean everyone's dust relaxing on my real face? 


who am I? what is my identity? which parasite am i permitting to live through me instead of me? do i still remember my face? 


i touched these layers of faces and i didn't feel my touch... ahhhh, that's why i don't feel the slaps, that's why i don't feel the smiles... everyone tell me that i have a great smile... i tell them that i am crying, i ask if they are blind to do not see my tears... but, now i am crying, and in the mirror, a perfect smiling girl is looking at me!!! but this is not me.... 


where is me? who is that smiling freak in the mirror... she is lying... she is pretending... she is hiding the truth... 
i am the truth and she is just the frame... but i realized then that i've permitted the frames to live instead of the truth... 

Life

the Joy after weeping, the encounter after leaving, the hope after distress and the sight after faith... are life after death... whatever death you are passing by, there is a promised life beyond.... Eternal life is a truth... Jesus is our Eternal life :) i believe in YOU Lord!!!!!

New Horizons

To live means to win... not to win the battle but to win over something, it maybe winning over your problems, winning over your situations, winning over some thoughts; but the most important is to win over your fears! 

Fear can protect you from trying, and you may say it is good, maybe you think it is safe... at least it protects you from disappointments... it is great, now your heart, mind and soul are protected, you can't be hurt, you won't feel bad! lucky you, you are great in locking a big door that holds four thick walls over your heart, neck, chest... it is better to stay alone, to pamper yourself by saying that you are candle that lights your lonely room, sun can't be brighter than you... Yes, you are the sun of the earth! an earth that is not inhabited by none but the king: You and your follower is your fear!!! but frankly, are you the king or the follower? 

At this moment, you may wish just a little thing: Can someone knock that door? can someone open it? your fear answers here: nooo, don't even dare to open the door if someone knocks... hell is outside and life ends there!!! 

then you keep hoping... but in silence.. now silence is another guest into the fear's kingdom... a welcomed one..... to shut up is the best gift you can give to your king!!!! shut up and build more walls... 

you are hearing a voice, you are wondering : "King, is that you? no, it is a different far voice.. " you freak out thinking that aliens are attacking you earth... silence now is the most needed... if you don't reply then they will think emptiness dwells here and they will go!!! but you are really feeling that it is not just the three of you are there... and you feel that you longs to that voice and that you want to break the silence and shut up your fear now... and in a rebellious way, you start digging a whole on your wall... " OH, my room can be brighter" you think... and you keep digging.. the first thing you see outside are opportunities walking in the streets accompanied by courage and will... ohhhh , you remember them... you were good friends before you lost your best friend "opportunity III", you lost it because of a tumor named fear... you are a follower of the killer of your dearest friend!!! how dare he to mislead you away of every loving one you used to know and to live with?? 

You ask for a help and your walls falls down, you are meeting new friends now and new ambitions... sadness, disappointments, hurt visits you sometimes but you dwell with courage, happiness, success and most of all new Horizons...

You are the winner here!!!

Valentine

to celebrate Love does not need a day, a rose, a gift or any other things... to celebrate Love is to be grateful for your life and to renew the vows of leaving everyone and just cleaving to him.... may Valentine be a sprinkle of what you daily feel... happy Valentine's day ♥